Resolutions

I'm cutting back on a ton of stuff this year.

I'm not reading tumblr anymore, I only want to drink a cup of coffee a day, and I'm going through the process of healing.

Healing, not as in physical therapy but healing as in finding my center.

Slowly, I'm becoming more calm, more down to earth, and hopefully more reasonable/forgiving.

Anyway, my center:

1. Records: Who knew music was so incredible? I really like the analogue sound of vinyl too.

2. Videogames: Not so much the newest and greatest, but the few that really work for me. (Most recently, a game like that was Aces Wild.)

3. Yoga: I try to do this everyday or every other day. I adore the feeling, and now I have my own yoga center. (which may or may not be my bedroom)

4. Live Streaming: Okay, I said I don't like games, but I like showing my friend circle the games I like to play.

The best feeling is fixing myself. And by fixing, I mean, finding stuff that I'm more true to.


On the other hand, there's stuff I want to get away from:

1. Magic: Yeah, the card game. I'm not an addict, but a couple of my friends are, and they want me to be super into it. I like the game, quite a lot, and I've been peer pressured into buying cards. (which is dumb now that I think about it)  but I don't want to give more time to it.

I might draft with my friends once a month tops. Also, some of my friends give excuses for their Magic habits like gamblers give excuses for playing too many slot machines.

2. Video game tabloids/news/game enthusiast gossip: I'm more or less going away from games because I've been into them less and less. And with me recently discovering "music" (seriously, I've only listened to radio music up to this point, outside an occasional cool friend showing my their vinyl collection.) I want to spend my "fun time" finding out about cool music, than know what's what with videogames. I still want to visit this one game forum however.

3. My fear of programming. Ugh, this is the hardest one to admit, but honestly, I have programming anxiety. I have the hardest time programming, and it's nothing but my fault. I have to own up to it, and try again from scratch. Right now I'm having a hard time thinking of a new idea for a game, but either way, if I know how to do stuff, I might have a better idea on how to design one. (as much as I've read about/studied game design)

4. Potato Chips: I hate that I love potato chips. Everyone has a craving for something, and usually my cravings are the crunch and the salt of potato chips. Of all the stuff on here, this is the one I'm going to quit cold turkey.


And finally where I want to go

1. Programming: See #3 above.

2. Better organization: My desk is cleaner! It's a start.

3. Take better care of myself: I should allow myself to make more mistakes, and generally be nicer to myself. I've been pretty harsh before, and I'm slowly getting better. Also, allow myself a little more ego. Not too much, but yeah.

Listening to: Aruarian Dance - Nujubes